Tuesday, 31 March 2009


for You my Mistress with all my love

Sunday, 15 March 2009

Sunday coming down

So it's all most the start of another week and well what a weekend i've had. Friday i spent the whole day with my Mistress and after worrying all week about how She was going to punish me for what i had said, She let me off with only one smack and a warning to watch my mouth.

We went clubbing Friday night and She let me have some freedom, but i was careful with my drink and kept by Her side all night.

On Saturday we went shopping in MK not anything special just normal food shopping in the evening we had a bit of fun in the bedroom, but things got out of hand and i had to use the safety word after my shoulder popped out when She pulled my hands behind my back. She was very upset about this happing, but it was my own fault for pulling forwards to much. i promised Her that i would be more care full next time and was very sorry for using the safety word. Next time i would try harder to take the pain.

Today (Sunday) i cooked Her dinner before i left to get back to my house for another weeks work as i'm on mornings next week i'm hoping that i will get over to see Her in the week, but we will have to wait and see what happens, now i'm thinking about what to do this afternoon, my shoulder is still a bit pain full, but not to bad.

until next time rebecca

one other thing i got an email last week.

My Mistress is called Emma and my name is rebecca, we are both females, no, no again, and now you know.

Thursday, 12 March 2009

pictures say a 1000 words

My Mistress how you are to me (strong, sexy, Dominate)

How i am to her (sweet, loving, submissive)

How i feel when she is away from me

Tuesday, 10 March 2009

i keep doing wrong

once again i have done wrong, due to the fact i keep forgetting myself.

On Sunday Mistress took some pictures of me in my command poses. i asked her what She was going to do with them She told me it was up to her and that i was not to ask things like that. well i logged into face book later that afternoon and found that She had added them to our submissive group, i was very upset about that and told her that, what She replied put me in my place "I am you Mistress and I will do with you what I see fit to do, I will not forget or forgive you for what you have said to me today and will deal with it on Friday." She then put the phone down. i am very upset that i did her wrong. i know She will punish me for what i said and i don't mind that i must pay.

i must learn from these mistakes i keep making as there not only painful on the flesh, but also on the heart and soul.

i know that my mistress reads this so once again "i'm sorry for being wrong, i forget myself far to easy, and place myself into your arms for punishment"



i was out clubbing at the weekend with my Mistress, and well after a bad week i had asked if it was ok to have a drink or two. She said it was fine so long as i did not have too much and get drunk. We got to the club just fine and i was behaving just fine until we ran into some friends from work, they do know about us and how i am towards her, so i explained that i was having a drink, but not too much. Well the night went on and i forgot myself and got very drunk and ended up being sick in the car park of the club.

The next morning i awoke with a killer hangover and my Mistress very angry. She made me undress and handcuffed my hands behind my back. She told me that She was very angry with the way that i had behaved and that i had done her wrong. She took out her paddle and hit me across the bum until i was crying and begging her to stop. She then put me in the expose submit pose, which is very painful for me to hold for more then a couple of seconds and held me there for what seemed ages. i begged her for forgiveness. She then took me in her arms and forgave me and explained what i did wrong. i understand that i did her wrong and will behave better next time.

i typed this as a warning to other submissive’s.

1. never forget yourself

2. all ways do as you Master / Mistress asks

3. do not overstep any lines that you have been give (like me getting drunk after being told not to)

Tuesday, 3 March 2009

my rules

my rules.

Commands from my Mistress.

* Silence:
Lower eyes and be silent.

* Present:
Remove clothes, kneel with knees spread wide, back straight and head up, and eyes lowered, wrists crossed behind your back then say; "Presenting Master". Wait patiently for examination or instructions.

* Restrict:
Simply cross wrists behind back.

* Rest:
Kneeling & Sit on heels, legs spread and hands (palms up) on top of legs.

* Submit:
Kneeling & Sit on heels, lean forward until head touches the ground. Place arms overhead with palms up and wrists crossed.

* Expose Submit:
Kneel then sit back on heels, lean back until your back rests on the ground and keeping legs wide apart, place your hands over your head with wrists crossed.

* Resume:
Cancels Previous Command.

Basic rules
i will :-

1 Always ask permission to cum....

2 Never be disrespectful to my Master or Others.

3 Not submit to being passed around as a sexual favour to other Doms.

4 Always respect my
Mistress and always address her as Mistress.

5 Remain constantly alert attempting to anticipate my Masters desire.

6 Follow instructions exactly and immediately.

7 Be silent unless spoken to, never raise my voice above a whisper unless commanded.

8 Keep my hands by my side or in the restrict pose unless i am using them or when

9 if my
Mistress punishes me i will take it thankfully and without compliant.

10 i will do whatever she tells me to do whenever she tells me to do it without question or pause.

Safety rules

i will only use the safety word if :-

1 there is a chance of permanent injury, scaring, cutting, burning.

2 if while locked up my limbs become cold or numb.

3 i will never allow myself to be struck on ovaries or kidneys.

4 i will never allow myself to be hit with whip or crop on the tailbone, head or neck.

Above all i will

1. Be Patient

2. Be Humble.

3. Be Open

4. Communicate

5. Be Honest Lying or being less than candid can only lead to problems, as my mistress will base the scene on inaccurate information. Besides causing problems, it can be dangerous.

6. Be Vulnerable

7. Be Realistic

8. Be really Submissive

9. Be Healthy

These are just some of my rules there are many more, but i am being called and i must go now

Sunday, 1 March 2009

i am a submissive woman.

i am a submissive woman.

i find pleasure, joy and fulfilment from being submissive to another in a loving relationship.
i am not weak, or stupid. i am a strong woman, with firm views and a clear concept of what i want out of my life.
i do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength.
i look to my loving Mistress for guidance and protection, i am never complete than when She is away from me.
i know that She will protect my body, my mind and my soul with Her strength and wisdom.
She is everything to me, as i am everything to Her. Her touch awakens me and Her thoughts free me.

Only in serving do i find complete freedom and joy.
Her punishments are harsh, but i accept them thankfully.
If She desires my body for pleasure, i shall joyfully give it to Her, and take pleasure myself in knowing i have have brought pleasure to Her.

However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of any relationship.
The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt, those are all parts of this relationship.
my body is Hers, and if She says i am beautiful, then i am.
No matter what i look like to others, i am beautiful in Her eyes, and because of that i hold my head high…for who can tell me that my Mistress is wrong?

If She says i am Her princess, then i am that…
And if i see laughter at me in the eyes of others, i do not recognize it, for who are they to call my Mistress wrong?
If She says i am Her toy, Her slut, then i am that…as wanton and dirty as She wants me to be.

my mind is Hers, to expand, to explore, to know as only She can. i have no secrets from Her…for secrets are a thing that would keep me from being more perfectly Hers.
my soul is Hers, as bare to Her touch as ever my skin could be when i kneel naked at Her feet.
If i were to ever displease Her, Her displeasure would be a blow to my soul, worse punishment than any lashes could be.
The anguish of my soul that i feel when i disappoint Her is harder to bear than the physical anguish i feel when Her belt caresses me with fire.

i spend my days knowing that the energy and thought She puts into our relationship is as much for my benefit as for Hers, and look forward to everyday and everything that we do together.

Her part is much harder than mine, and i know this and am grateful that She cares enough about me to spend Her time and energy so freely on me.
i have the easier job: to feel, to experience, to let myself go and abandon everything to Her.
i am Her pleasure and Her responsibility, and She takes both seriously.
i am a submissive woman. i am proud to call myself that.
my submission is a gift that i do not give lightly, and can only be given to one who can appreciate that gift.

i am a submissive woman.

she is Emma i am rebecca