what happens to a submissive when there alone ?

i've just been put in a unhappy place, my Mistress has left me.......

this may not sound right as i'm a bit lost just now, but i need to wright something.

There was nothing wrong with our relationship or my submissiveness to her (or lack of it at times), this split is due to work and the fact she wants to go back to collage in her home town.

i should have seen this coming as She was only saying the other month about going back to Sheffield, and well after She spent the weekend up there with Her family, the writing was on the wall. i would like to move up there with her, but that would mean giving up everything that i have here, i would do that gladly, but She will not allow it, She says that i must get on with my life..... SHE IS MY LIFE, i don't know how i'm going to cope with this.

i have learned that my submission has needs -

my submission needs to be used - if it's not it will use
my submission needs to be controlled - if it's not it will take control
my submission needs to be free - i can not hide it way.

and now 2 of the the above 3 can not be for filled, for who will use it and who will control it..............

this is a road that i don't want to walk down, but have been forced......

my heart burns and my soul cries, how can one be left alone that needs to be two. i'm scared of what lies ahead for me, now that i am on my own.