mutterings

well i am back....... seems about the last place i can post my feelings and words, for the last 2-3 years i've been running a group on facebook and a forum for submissive's, slaves & kajiras (gorean slaves) well it would seem that well, my words feels thoughts have upset someone..... as all on the same day my group and forum get removed no word as to why, just poof "your group has been removed" well who ever it is was hope you keep better now freedom of speech my bottom.

on the other hand guess i will just have to ramble on here (ok feel sorry for you)

just a little update of what's happened to me.
been in and out of hospital a few times
been studying the Gorean kajira (eg leaning the poses and kneels etc)
oo and playing far to much second life where we have our own Gorean sim.

i promise now that i will be about more

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kajira

the submissive with the slaves heart xxx

talking

i have been talking to another submissive called samantha on facebook over the last week, and i called her on the phone today (14/may/2009), and have come to see what it is like to be a submissive, in a full on loving relationship. she gives herself so freely to Him, it made me feel almost unsubmissive.......

i want to better myself so much, to be just like her, but i find it so hard sometimes, yes i would do anything for my Mistress and She gives me so much in return. Why do i need to test things, to do things that i know are going to hurt Her. my last post is not just something that i like, but a plea to myself to stop, think, obey and give myself to Her freely.

Allow me the spirit to know Her needs...
Allow me the kindness to choke back retorts...
Allow me the serenity to serve Her in peace...
Allow me the love to show Her in peace...
Allow me the tenderness to comfort Her...
Allow me the light to show U~us the way...
Allow me the wisdom to be an asset to Her...
Let me be able to show Her each day my love by my service to Her...
Let me open myself up to completely belong to Her...
Let my eyes show Her each day my love by my service to Her...
Let me open myself up to completely belong to Her...
Let my eyes show Her the same respect, whether i sit at Her side, or kneel at Her feet...
Let me accept my punishment with the grace of a woman...
Let me learn to please Her, beyond myself...
Grant me the power to give myself to Her completely...
Give me the strength to please U~us both...
Permit me to love myself, in loving Her...
Allow me the peace of serving Her...
For it is my greatest wish, my highest power, to make Her life complete, as She makes mine.

i am girl

Allow girl the strength to answer questions i cannot fathom
Allow girl the spirit to know Her needs
Allow girl the serenity to serve Her in peace
Allow girl the love to show Her herself
Allow girl the tenderness to comfort Her
Allow girl the wisdom to be an asset to Her
Let girl be able to show Her each day her love of her service to Her
Let girl open herself up to completely belong to Her
Let girl accept her punishment with the grace of a woman
Let girl learn to please Her, beyond herself
Grant girl the power to give herself to Her completely
Give girl the strength to please us both
Permit girl to love herself, in loving Her
For it is her greatest wish, her highest power To make His life complete as He makes hers.